Posts Tagged ‘bullying’

As we grow in this life there are stop signs in the way!

This is where we make changes, some good and some not so good, its all up to the person that is at that stop sign in that moment.
This is one of my stop signs:
As I was growing up, I was in a place that had total control of me.  I was pretty much not welcomed, abused mentally and was abused  physically hit by my caregiver, who I grew great anger towards (and still to this day, but not as much).  I am still working on this one.  I was a child and I was to small to fight back so I took my revenge out on the boys in my class at school  I was a bully!

I was like this for 7 years until one day I ran into my first stop sign.  This came to me one day as I was thinking to myself and I realized that I was mad at my caregiver and not my friends!

At that moment I made my decision to stop fighting!
Let me tell you when you live one way for so long its hard to change overnight, anyway as word got out I had to fight almost everyday to get home to prove I was not a coward. (Sorry to those who made that mistake then)!  My point is that it was time to change myself or I was doing what my caregiver wanted me to do and my world and life would have been a waste .
So at times it sure is nice to realize that there are stop signs that we can’t see until its time for change.

That was one of the stop signs in my life!
When you have a moment, stop, think of a time you made a change in your life and maybe you will see the stop sign that was there waiting for you or you might just find one that is coming.  It all depends on you!

Do you want to change the road your on now?

If so watch for the stop signs:

  • Stop,
  • Think and
  • Move on with your life the way you want it to be!

Shared by “Wandering Eagle” (Dean)

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Many people today are concerned about bullying and abuse!

This is my story and my understanding of bullying, where it came from in my life and how I work with it today.  Sometimes we need to understand situations from a different perspective in order to work with it!  It was previously published on this blog and I have become aware of the importance of republishing it today!

All day I had fleeting thoughts of what I needed to say about Bullying and the guides just kept reminding me to read my own book…I certainly have many chapters to write of this one. First thing to say is that until you have been bullied and abused, it certainly is difficult to understand the affect it has on you. Once again at a young age my guides entered into my life to teach me oh so very much about bullying from both sides, that of being the bullied and also being the bully. Amazingly those learnings have stuck with me throughout my life and have allowed me to walk into and work in area’s that are very difficult for some to even imagine. I remember being very young and being placed on the pedestal of being a sweet young curly headed girl who was being groomed to fit into a very lopsided society. At that time parental abuse and put downs were an acceptable means of raising children, however, in todays terms that is bullying and I certainly know how that affects ones life. Bullying by a parent is one of the toughest forms of abuse to go through, however, many of us have lived through it. From all of this bullying in my younger years I learned that those who love me bully and abuse me, so therefore, simply LOVE = PAIN and HURT so I struggled for many years with a backwards love language. If you really love me, you will hurt me…..In that anytime I tried to love myself it meant that I needed to hurt myself. Is it any wonder that physical, mental, emotional abuse became my love language? Of course not. The more I was bullied and abused, the more I felt loved! I remember learning to stand up to my abusers and my goodness where that led me to was mind blowing. I remember becoming the bully and abuser when a partner reached out to grab me for a weekly beating, and I in turn grabbed his arm, threw him over the back of a couch and stood over him with my fist in the air and stated that if he ever touched me in that way again I would have him put in jail without blinking an eye! He never did bully me again, and he left my life rapidly, because he did not want to be bullied by me! This went on with many relationships and people, in order for me to learn to walk forward in life knowing that I was loved, safe and protected inside of me and if anyone was going to abuse and bully me it would be me! I have mastered beating up on myself in this lifetime. So instead of others doing it to me to feel loved, self abuse and self bullying became the name of my game. When I said that the best defence was a strong offence, this is what I meant! When I graduated to working with bullies in the Young Offender System and The Prison System, I could sure understand where they were coming from, as well as understanding the pure paralyzing fear that occurs when you are the one being bullied. The sad thing that I know today is that both the bully and the bullied are coming from the same dysfunctional place and both of them have that same negative and backwards love language firmly ingrained in them from those who have bullied them under the guise of love! As a parent today, I am very cautious how I speak to my children and any child I am around. It is not uncommon to hear me using their negative love language to make sure that they feel accepted and cared about. Today I will need to deal with my Foster Son using very explicit negative love language that may include things like hey dummy what the F—k do you think you are doing in order for him to understand how much I love him. He in return will reply with hey you old bag, what do you think I am doing and we know that our love is secure, real for us, and totally misunderstood by others. We talk about where we have come from…..the bullying we have inflicted on others in the sake of self preservation, and the bullying that we have experienced Mentally, Physically, Emotionally and Spiritually in our lives that makes us who we are today. Human Beings who are loved in strange ways, but learning growing and being really who we are! I believe I mentioned I had a lot to say on bullying and believe it or not I have only just begun! I know this is a safe place to express myself and be understood from all polarities and perspectives. Peace, love (not backwards), light and blessings to all who have been where I have been and who may still be there today. We are not perfect, we are human!

“White Eagle”

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Is there any child in their lifetime who has not been bullied at some level or should I say on some level?

This is my story and today I understand how important it is to share this story with the world!

We are always told to protect ourselves, but how many of us actually know how to?

When I was a small child I was blessed with the gift of memory. My memory allows me to remember back to a very young age, and by being able to remember I have learned much in my lifetime that I keep with me. This information to me is sacred!

Some of my most sacred learning has to do with the appearance of what I will call Boogie Persons who entered into my life at the strangest times. These Boogie Persons today I know as spirit who are choosing to enter into life through me!

As a child, because I was so open, I spent many hours petrified with fear, frozen in time while some of the more negative spirits played havoc with my lack of knowing. For many years going to bed was not an enjoyable exercise to go through. I began to make a ritual out of my bedtime. My parents would say goodnight, I would pretend to be asleep, put the covers over my face, leaving only my nose sticking out in the belief that these gestures would protect me from those who have gone before me who were choosing to be me in that moment. The more I wrapped myself up in the blanket the more protection I believed I had from these somewhat negative entities who were entering my world in spirit! These visitations left me drained, irritable, and having great difficulty with functioning in my day to day world. Very simply, in my little life, no one thought to teach me about setting boundaries! I was busy learning to be socially acceptable, polite, and agreeable and in some ways totally dysfunctional to meet the need of removing my nightly and daily visitors. They stayed with me while I remained hidden under my covers until I was a young adult.

One night after having an extremely difficult day, I laid down, went into a very deep sleep when they appeared! My whole being had to go through the antics of sorting and understanding who they are, what they are doing and what they are doing it for. Messages come in the strangest forms at times! This appearance includes all of my senses, Sight, Sound, Taste, Smell, color, black and white and the list goes on. These appearances are what I have called dreams when I am sleeping, when I am awake I just call them Messages and Visions!

Back to the night, I woke up in the middle of sorting all of these things and realized that I did not need to be pushed, prodded, and threatened by those who have gone before me who are me in the middle of the night! I set my boundary very clearly by telling them to leave, in not nice terms I just told them to F–k off, and they did! I have had to use this means of removing the negative entities from my being, my bedroom, and my life many times, and it amazes me today that so many of us live with the nuisance and control of those who are choosing to come back and create havoc in our lives in the attempt to carry us over to what they perceive is the right way to be as they are caught in the polarity of their time on earth.

I went on dealing with entities in this way and got into understanding my dreams through courses on Dream Therapy, Hypnosis training, and anything else that I believed would assist me in understanding the coming and going of spiritual entities through my belief systems.

From my perspective today I understand the following and know it to be true for me:

Dreams are 90% clearing and 10% pre-cognitive. When I receive a message through dreaming that showing me that something is going to become a reality, I intuitively know that this is one of the 10% I need to pay attention to! The 90% I know are clearing the more negative aspects of my life, and are in reality allowing me to be.  Today I know that:

  • It is perfectly O.K. to remove any entities from my realm of being that I choose to not have around me, and they do listen in spirit, just as they listened in human form.
  • There is no need for me to be bullied by spirit, and my beliefs do create my reality!
  • When I am being polite to negative spirit, I am not taking care of me!
  • Using ritual, talisman, sweet grass, sage, smoke, Sweat Lodge, bells, gems, and all other rituals including covering your head with a blanket if it works for you is O.K.
  • Being able to reach out and ask for assistance is great as there is strength in numbers!

May peace, love, light and blessings be with you!

“White Eagle”

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In this world there are four ways I can be bullied!

Mentally, Physically, Emotionally and Spiritually!

I choose now to be free from bullying as I move forward on my journey through life!

Peace, love, light, blessings and freedom to us all!

“White Eagle”

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