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I have spent most of my life searching…for love, purpose and acceptance… And half way through, for happiness and peace…in this search I barked up wrong trees…desperately trying to find what already existed, little did I know, it lived within me… I chased status, money, possessions, the career, popularity, academia, relationships, and power…

The more I chased the further removed I became from myself… The more life challenged me, the more I denied who I was, and the more life became confusing and complicated… And to worldly demands, I became appeasing. Everytime I doubted who I was…or doubted the love of the One behind my creation… I was losing part of ME…

One day, I came to realize I lost it. I lost me and the legacy of where I had come from… In striving for wordly acceptance and perfection, I lost me… I stepped into a world of falsehood… Placing value on all the wrong things and putting my Energy into the wrong places, I tried to ‘plan’ for the future… Which brought worrying about the past…to be ‘responsible’.

I wanted the perfect life, the perfect family, a perfect me… But instead… I was given.. a Journey to walk, full of trials and tribulations… Gracefully given a flawed family to bless me with teachings… and an imperfect me to have a teachable spirit..

My search has since come full circle…and right back to me… My search for love outside of myself, in worldly things and in people is not over, but is in transformation. I try to live In the now and revel in the present… I look inward, to the One, the Greater Energy that lives within me, that IS me. This spirit, this consciousness connects us to other beings, to the pulse of mother earth and all its creations.

This pure Light, this pure energy is a reflection of the universal truth… that we are all One. Our personal truths are ones of beauty, love and creativity… May your light shine bright and let It guide you…When you feel lost, confused or despair, look for it…

This spirit has lived many lives… It holds sacred knowledge… Has seen through many eyes, and will never give up on you… It carries You… If you let it… Know and remember always, my girl, that You are a precious spiritual being… YOU are Loved..

All My Relations- Hai Hai

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